La tesina de la Conny

still here in vienna. it is the warmest autumn since years, and i can´t belive it. there was like one day of snow, but since that temperature keeps around 10°C, which is really w arm, especially for this time of the year. getting up in a winter- morning still tends to be rather hard, because until midday it´s imposible to see the sun- never seen so much fog.
i discovered a new place to study, at the libary of the technical university of vienna. they have windows, good heating, large working spaces and i´m definitly aware of meeting someone i know. in the last weeks i had a lot of doubts if the project for my dissertation would work out, and somehow i completly lost orientation in the whole thing. i thought about leaving it with a simple literature research here in vienna. so i went quite depressed to see the profesor, who is the tutor of my project. he´s just nice! he told me that i´m a clever girl and other things like that, that i really needed to hear. and he even told me that for him it´s absolutely necessary that i´ll go to spain.
so the next date to present my project to receive a scholarship is the 15th. of january and i just don´t see how i will manage to get through with all the stuff.
i´m starting to search now for archives , libaries and so on to get some contacts and help to make my research plan. somehow i´m really afraid of all of that, because at last i´ll be in spain travelling two months around, working all day long with books and newspapers and after that i´ll be in towns i don´t know, or at least i won´t know a lot of people there. so i´m just scared to death.
but right now that´s still a little bit away and i´m quite fine at the moment. had my first punsch two weeks ago and whenever i find the time i´m meeting someone. it´s great, all this christmas mood going on. i really was missing that. and now for the first time they put christmas streets. it´s kind of nice. i´m thinking about what it will be like next year and i don´t know, to have this tension that i don´t really have an idea how it will be gives me wings. this insecurity makes me feel like that everything is a big adventure that i really look forward to. the only thing to start the adventure is to finish university.
guess that all of these things i´m writing sound pretty adolescent, but it´s a nice feeling to get it out of mind, at least in a blog. (and i´m sure noone reads it, because noone is commenting anything;) )

Ir de Guatemala a Guatepeior

I´m fed up with this no comment stuff...
venga... no teneis nada que decirme.... nadie?????

Funkstille

well no news for quite some time. but since i have quite a virus problem on my computer i couldn´t post anything for a long time. quite strange how dependent one becomes by the time using all this stuff. thanks to simon i´m more or less connected at the moment.
i´m working a lot, other reason why i didn´t write for such a long time, and who is such a good girl needs some variety in her freetime. that´s why i´m quite busy all the weekends killing my brain cells with a combination of alcohol consume and lack of sleep.... good strategy "de compensar".
still can´t believe it "el culo" comes to vienna to visit me.... well to tell the truth i won´t believe it until the moment i´ll see him at the airport... el nino de mis ojos :))
so, because there is nothing espectacular happening, i´ll leave it with that. i´m really fine... and still alive... incredible.

Integration- The Viennese Way

Yesterday I found myself in a Emir Kusturica Film without planning it.
Friend of mine won cards for a "HIP HOP Contest"- thing in "CLUB OST" in Vienna. So she invited me to come with her. Arriving there we just realized that there weren´t exactly a lot of people and we found out that the concert is about to start at 11 pm, so we had about two hours to drink us in the mood for HIP HOP.
The Club OST (www.ost-klub.at) is result of a fusion of three Clubs: the legendary "Papa´s Tapas", "Zu-ga-be" and the "Atrium". It´s huge!!! There are two Rooms with stage , one dance floor and a kind of Lounge thing. They have all kinds of concerts but mainly you can find all types of Balkan Rock and Pop, which is really very cool. For those who know Berlin´s "Kaffee Burger", it´s kind of posh version, with more professional marketing, of the "Russendisko". Really nice thing.
But yesterday the former "Zu-ga-be"- Part was full of Hip Hop. Kind of funny, because my relation to Hip Hop starts and ends with "Kolchose", "Freundeskreis", "FK Allstars", "Max Herre", "Joy Denalane",.... and related projects. To explain it: german Hip Hop in a early ninties style, with kind of political message, sometimes. Nothing of "ey what a hot bitch" stuff.
Coming into the room where the Contest was performed I felt rather old... the average visitor was about 17, which isn´t a problem, because I myself managed to conserve a childlike joy for things I like. But this people there just were cool, the girls above all... oh my goodness... how freaky this girls were.
However after two groups we just decided to roam to the other room, the ethical corner. There was group of turkish girls and one guy that started dancing to kind of turkish dancefloor music.... it was really funny because it was totally contrary to the other room. And two glasses of Vodka later I found myself in this round getting lessons in turkish line dancing... halarious. The music was awful, but really funny. After quite some time the DJ decided to change the music and put on Goran Bregovic Stuff.
In the mean time more people have entered in this part of the Club and the Hip Hop thing was finished. By the time we went home there was a freaky dancing mass of Turks, Polish, Serbians, Croats,... and a lot of Hip Hop Guys in there Hip Hop Outfits dancing to the Soundtrack of "Black Cat, White Cat". All the coolness kept in the other Performing Room I guess. Everybody dancing and laughing and having a great time. Sometimes I wish I had a Camera with me all the time!
Maybe all this politicians concerned about that the integration of the new members of the European Union won´t work out should get a Goran Bregovich or "The Non Smoking Orchestre" CD and start to give parties... it´s possible to bridge the gap of cultures with alcohol and the right rythm, I´ve seen it !

Winter has started

In the meantime I just noticed that there are a lot of people reading the blog, but nobody, well, almost nobody, is brave enough to post.
So I´m sitting here with my typically sunday mood: I got a terrible Hangover and yesterday I found out that I haven´t been in my apartment an entire day for three weeks now. So today this will be that special day... Somehow I´m afraid I won´t be in the situation to enjoy it like I really planned to. But anyway looking outside the window, I´m thinking about staying at home until march, because it´s terribly cold. Two days ago we had the first day of snow and all the viennese were getting nervous to buy the "winter wheels" (i don´t have any idea how this should be called for real) for their cars. I thought that this year I will be extraordinary clever and I won´t spend to much money in heating: First because I´m hardly ever home and second because I was getting used to spend a winter with my coat on all day long freezing like hell in sunny spain last year. But I´m weak, a looser, yesterday I started to heat up.
The worst about this time here is the wind and that people stop going out. I mean that´s logical think about the risks: you are getting drunk and just fall asleep on the street and you die from exposure. I guess that´s not funny! And all the places to go out are far away from where you live... allways. Allthough you might live in a cool quarter of town where you can go out and everything, you´ll allways have friends that refuse to go out round your corner and they´ll take you to the other side of town. So at least you have the choice between: freeze yourself to death while walking home, freeze yourself to death while waiting for the "nightline" or getting hopelessly poor in getting home in a way too expensive cab.
So I choosed to live, I´ll stay at home and I´ll keep on working to finish my studies... hurrah: GOOD GIRL! That´s what winter is for!

Interpretación

Vale...habeis visto el último post? Supongo que si! Tengo un problema: Me daba cuenta que precisamente esa canción gusta a un monton de personas, hecho traducciones y entiendo cada palabra (ya se que mi espanol es una mierda, pero bueno), pero me resulta absolutamente imposible de coger el sentido. Estaba buscando si se puede encuentrar una traduccion en otro siteo o un intento de interpretación pero tampoco tenía exito con eso. Pues... entonces: si alguien sabe algo o simplemente es más listo o lista que yo, que no me parece tan complicado, me podais hacer un gran favor con las ideas! Un beso... a todo el mundo y el universo tambien.

Oleo de una mujer con sombrero

Una mujer se ha perdido
Conocer el delirio y el polvo
Se ha perdido esa bella locura
Su breve cintura
Debajo de mí
Se ha perdido mi forma de amar
Se ha perdido mi huella en su mar

Veo una luz que vacila
Y promete dejarnos a oscuras
Veo un perro ladrando a la luna
Con otra figura
Que recuerda a ti
Veo más, veo que no lo halló
Veo más, veo que se perdió

Una mujer innombrable
Huye como una gaviota
Y yo rápido seco mis botas
Blasfemo una nota
Y apago el reloj
Que me tenga cuidado el amor
Que le puedo cantar su canción

La cobardía es asunto
De los hombres no de los amantes
Los amores cobardes no llegan
A amores ni a historias
Se quedan allí
Ni el recuerdo los puede salvar
Ni el mejor orador conjugar

Una mujer con sombrero
Como un cuadro del viejo Chagall
Corrompiéndose al centro del miedo
Y yo, que no soy bueno, me puse a llorar
Pero entonces lloraba por ti
y ahora lloro por verla morir


Silvio Rodriguez

Alltagsbericht für Thomas...oder besinnliches zum Feiertag

Also ich bin noch immer hier und vermeide es mit allen mir zur Verfügung stehenden Mitteln irgendwie produktiv für meine Diplomarbeit auch nur ansatzweise irgendetwas zu tun... aber mittlerweile ist mir klar geworden, dass das ziemlich normal zu sein scheint. So hege ich noch immer die Hoffnung, dass sich das noch irgendwann ändern wird.
Nachdem ich gestern meiner Tante alle "Spanien ist so toll" Geschichten erzählt habe, wurde dann zu spät nächtlicher Stunde ein neuer Brauch in der Wohngemeinschaft Stefan-Hofi/Thomas begründet: das nationalfeiertags bleigiesen mit nachherigem wir patzen den Schas auf den Küchentisch und schauen was passiert. Waren aber recht nette Ergebnisse... für mich sah natürlich alles aus wie Fische, aber bitte.
Heute dann den ganzen Tag damit verbracht 80er Jahre Schinken im Nachmittagsprogramm von ATV (sind die jetzt mit oder ohne +?) zu verfolgen und am Abend dann von Mütterchen bekochen lassen. So, somit hab ich mein beschauliches zum Feiertag beigetragen.

NOTICIAS....

So I´m sitting here waiting for posts... but there was something good about starting the blog: Today and yesterday I received quite some news of people I haven´t heard since I´m back - Carol I´m sorry I couldn´t respond your MSN message, I was just heading out, and Elena: I really think I can understand about your Seville Experience; coming back to a place where you used to live and just see that the people you´ve been living, growing and enjoying with just aren´t there... what strange impression it might be.
Today I was activating my SKYPE Account- how great this inventions of technology that allow us to stay in touch with the whole world. Anna was at my place and we made kind of a "Triana Revival Night"... we´ve been watching TV and had some Chinese Food. Strange about it was that it needed much more time to be delivered than in Spain- altough the Austrians have the reputation to be better organized. Anyway that´s not the point... We´ve been talking to Aurora and Inma... the best people to live with when you just arrived in Spain... and they were telling us that they spent the last weekend at the beach... for austrian girls this was a pretty good reason to get nostalgic...but in quite some time we will get used to the coldness... well at least that´s what everyone tells us.
Hey and I wasn´t forgetting it:
MONICA... que suerte tienes mujer, como me allegro parati. Espero que todo se queda así como es en este mismo momento. Pues despues de todas las vueltas y la montana rusa de emociones te lo has merecido, pero un monton. Te echo de menos que no veo... y tambien las noches de las (son)risas locas y las cervezas en el central. Cuida la estrella de la Suerte, Guapa!

Adios Sevilla... a new life in Vienna

So I should be working and reading a lot for my dissertation, but there is always someone online and allthough I´m once again integrated in austrian social life it costs a lot not to think about all the great people I have been meeting during the last years... so basically I thought instead of beeing writing e-mails all the time I could start a blog and you just keep on posting about how you are doing and all that stuff. At least decided to write in english... but everyone of you knows... you also can post in german or spanish and there won´t be any problem. So I´m fine. Struggling to finish my studies, working a lot... and as some of you know I might be back to Seville soon... alltough it might be only for a couple of weeks... in spring.