PLATTFORM FÜR GESUNDEN ALKOHOLISMUS

THE ORIGIN OF LOVE



HEDWIG AND THE ANGRY INCH

FUCKING AUSTRIA

Wishlist for Christmas

okay, now we came to this certain point! They are starting joking about me! This can´t be true! This afternoon a friend of mine calls me, he at the moment is really ill and because of that even more bored, just to tell me, that he in my situation would start worring, because nobody leaves posts in my weblog.
Starting to think about that, I came to the conclusion that for me as well is almost impossible to understand what the hell makes it so difficult to leave me a few lines. Because I know, that people are looking at it, because there are a lot of people commenting about the page, while having a beer with me (what a nice picture, now haven´t made an entry for quite some time, etc.), but they are not stimulated enough to leave a message. And what´s worse of all, even after asking them in a specially dedicated post.
So I just figured out about myself, I´ll have to be one of the persons that nobody loves... but it´s impossible to let me go through Christmastime like that. So I decided to add a little more pressure to the whole story: If you don´t start to post, i´ll start to public embarising stories about everyone I know with the month of january!
Maybe than it will be more interesting...

And so this is Christmas

hello everyone,
still a lot of work and i´m looking really forward to christmas holidays. by that time the libaries will be closed so i can just lay back and relax without the burden of bad consience. now everything is getting more concrete about going to spain this spring. i´m starting to get in contact with some people and it seems to be a little bit sucessfull at least.
i´m exchanging mails with one profesor of the university of seville and the head of documentation of the filmoteca espanola in madrid, but other institutions are still ignoring me... but well, thats just the way it is. now deni is going to seville next monday... que suerte tiene esa mujer... i would love to come with her... es que verdaderamente tengo una envidia.... but soon i´ll be back jejejeje.
here i´m really in christmas mood, a thing that above all is surprising me a lot, because normally i tend to freak out because all this stuff is going on my nerves quite a lot. but there is still a chance that it might change, because i haven´t bought any presents yet, and so i´m still thinking about that it should be possible to find an excuse not to buy them... but i guess that my family is too materialistic for that.
so that´s all. time is passing so quick it´s incredible... now we have christmas. when i came back i thought that i´ll have plenty of time but it isn´t that way. but i´m really enjoying myself

La tesina de la Conny

still here in vienna. it is the warmest autumn since years, and i can´t belive it. there was like one day of snow, but since that temperature keeps around 10°C, which is really w arm, especially for this time of the year. getting up in a winter- morning still tends to be rather hard, because until midday it´s imposible to see the sun- never seen so much fog.
i discovered a new place to study, at the libary of the technical university of vienna. they have windows, good heating, large working spaces and i´m definitly aware of meeting someone i know. in the last weeks i had a lot of doubts if the project for my dissertation would work out, and somehow i completly lost orientation in the whole thing. i thought about leaving it with a simple literature research here in vienna. so i went quite depressed to see the profesor, who is the tutor of my project. he´s just nice! he told me that i´m a clever girl and other things like that, that i really needed to hear. and he even told me that for him it´s absolutely necessary that i´ll go to spain.
so the next date to present my project to receive a scholarship is the 15th. of january and i just don´t see how i will manage to get through with all the stuff.
i´m starting to search now for archives , libaries and so on to get some contacts and help to make my research plan. somehow i´m really afraid of all of that, because at last i´ll be in spain travelling two months around, working all day long with books and newspapers and after that i´ll be in towns i don´t know, or at least i won´t know a lot of people there. so i´m just scared to death.
but right now that´s still a little bit away and i´m quite fine at the moment. had my first punsch two weeks ago and whenever i find the time i´m meeting someone. it´s great, all this christmas mood going on. i really was missing that. and now for the first time they put christmas streets. it´s kind of nice. i´m thinking about what it will be like next year and i don´t know, to have this tension that i don´t really have an idea how it will be gives me wings. this insecurity makes me feel like that everything is a big adventure that i really look forward to. the only thing to start the adventure is to finish university.
guess that all of these things i´m writing sound pretty adolescent, but it´s a nice feeling to get it out of mind, at least in a blog. (and i´m sure noone reads it, because noone is commenting anything;) )

Integration- The Viennese Way

Yesterday I found myself in a Emir Kusturica Film without planning it.
Friend of mine won cards for a "HIP HOP Contest"- thing in "CLUB OST" in Vienna. So she invited me to come with her. Arriving there we just realized that there weren´t exactly a lot of people and we found out that the concert is about to start at 11 pm, so we had about two hours to drink us in the mood for HIP HOP.
The Club OST (www.ost-klub.at) is result of a fusion of three Clubs: the legendary "Papa´s Tapas", "Zu-ga-be" and the "Atrium". It´s huge!!! There are two Rooms with stage , one dance floor and a kind of Lounge thing. They have all kinds of concerts but mainly you can find all types of Balkan Rock and Pop, which is really very cool. For those who know Berlin´s "Kaffee Burger", it´s kind of posh version, with more professional marketing, of the "Russendisko". Really nice thing.
But yesterday the former "Zu-ga-be"- Part was full of Hip Hop. Kind of funny, because my relation to Hip Hop starts and ends with "Kolchose", "Freundeskreis", "FK Allstars", "Max Herre", "Joy Denalane",.... and related projects. To explain it: german Hip Hop in a early ninties style, with kind of political message, sometimes. Nothing of "ey what a hot bitch" stuff.
Coming into the room where the Contest was performed I felt rather old... the average visitor was about 17, which isn´t a problem, because I myself managed to conserve a childlike joy for things I like. But this people there just were cool, the girls above all... oh my goodness... how freaky this girls were.
However after two groups we just decided to roam to the other room, the ethical corner. There was group of turkish girls and one guy that started dancing to kind of turkish dancefloor music.... it was really funny because it was totally contrary to the other room. And two glasses of Vodka later I found myself in this round getting lessons in turkish line dancing... halarious. The music was awful, but really funny. After quite some time the DJ decided to change the music and put on Goran Bregovic Stuff.
In the mean time more people have entered in this part of the Club and the Hip Hop thing was finished. By the time we went home there was a freaky dancing mass of Turks, Polish, Serbians, Croats,... and a lot of Hip Hop Guys in there Hip Hop Outfits dancing to the Soundtrack of "Black Cat, White Cat". All the coolness kept in the other Performing Room I guess. Everybody dancing and laughing and having a great time. Sometimes I wish I had a Camera with me all the time!
Maybe all this politicians concerned about that the integration of the new members of the European Union won´t work out should get a Goran Bregovich or "The Non Smoking Orchestre" CD and start to give parties... it´s possible to bridge the gap of cultures with alcohol and the right rythm, I´ve seen it !

Winter has started

In the meantime I just noticed that there are a lot of people reading the blog, but nobody, well, almost nobody, is brave enough to post.
So I´m sitting here with my typically sunday mood: I got a terrible Hangover and yesterday I found out that I haven´t been in my apartment an entire day for three weeks now. So today this will be that special day... Somehow I´m afraid I won´t be in the situation to enjoy it like I really planned to. But anyway looking outside the window, I´m thinking about staying at home until march, because it´s terribly cold. Two days ago we had the first day of snow and all the viennese were getting nervous to buy the "winter wheels" (i don´t have any idea how this should be called for real) for their cars. I thought that this year I will be extraordinary clever and I won´t spend to much money in heating: First because I´m hardly ever home and second because I was getting used to spend a winter with my coat on all day long freezing like hell in sunny spain last year. But I´m weak, a looser, yesterday I started to heat up.
The worst about this time here is the wind and that people stop going out. I mean that´s logical think about the risks: you are getting drunk and just fall asleep on the street and you die from exposure. I guess that´s not funny! And all the places to go out are far away from where you live... allways. Allthough you might live in a cool quarter of town where you can go out and everything, you´ll allways have friends that refuse to go out round your corner and they´ll take you to the other side of town. So at least you have the choice between: freeze yourself to death while walking home, freeze yourself to death while waiting for the "nightline" or getting hopelessly poor in getting home in a way too expensive cab.
So I choosed to live, I´ll stay at home and I´ll keep on working to finish my studies... hurrah: GOOD GIRL! That´s what winter is for!

NOTICIAS....

So I´m sitting here waiting for posts... but there was something good about starting the blog: Today and yesterday I received quite some news of people I haven´t heard since I´m back - Carol I´m sorry I couldn´t respond your MSN message, I was just heading out, and Elena: I really think I can understand about your Seville Experience; coming back to a place where you used to live and just see that the people you´ve been living, growing and enjoying with just aren´t there... what strange impression it might be.
Today I was activating my SKYPE Account- how great this inventions of technology that allow us to stay in touch with the whole world. Anna was at my place and we made kind of a "Triana Revival Night"... we´ve been watching TV and had some Chinese Food. Strange about it was that it needed much more time to be delivered than in Spain- altough the Austrians have the reputation to be better organized. Anyway that´s not the point... We´ve been talking to Aurora and Inma... the best people to live with when you just arrived in Spain... and they were telling us that they spent the last weekend at the beach... for austrian girls this was a pretty good reason to get nostalgic...but in quite some time we will get used to the coldness... well at least that´s what everyone tells us.
Hey and I wasn´t forgetting it:
MONICA... que suerte tienes mujer, como me allegro parati. Espero que todo se queda así como es en este mismo momento. Pues despues de todas las vueltas y la montana rusa de emociones te lo has merecido, pero un monton. Te echo de menos que no veo... y tambien las noches de las (son)risas locas y las cervezas en el central. Cuida la estrella de la Suerte, Guapa!

Adios Sevilla... a new life in Vienna

So I should be working and reading a lot for my dissertation, but there is always someone online and allthough I´m once again integrated in austrian social life it costs a lot not to think about all the great people I have been meeting during the last years... so basically I thought instead of beeing writing e-mails all the time I could start a blog and you just keep on posting about how you are doing and all that stuff. At least decided to write in english... but everyone of you knows... you also can post in german or spanish and there won´t be any problem. So I´m fine. Struggling to finish my studies, working a lot... and as some of you know I might be back to Seville soon... alltough it might be only for a couple of weeks... in spring.